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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
humans r v queer creatures... u noe tat u dun like tis person, bt u r able to see perhaps his/her frenster, blog, msn nick, etc etc... den u get piss off when u see tat person writin bout tings tat u perhaps dun approve or disagree...
u start to tink, mabbie i shld juz ignore n nt noe aniting so i can "get on wif my life", bt curiousity will lead u to see again, den u'll get angry or gloatin ovr tat person disgustingly... r we such petty creatures? isnt it better if u juz ignore his/her presence? in tat way, u can live ur happy life... since u dislike tat person tat much, it'll be best if u dun waste ur time on him/her...
sumtimes tat person will come n bother u... den hw u treat tat situation will depend entirely up to u... u wan to piss tat person off, or u wan to ignore tat person? for mi, i'll choose the latter... coz tat person aka IT will nt be worth my time n effort... y shld i let IT tink tat IT is important enuff for mi to tink up of ways to make IT feel bad? so tat i'll feel gd? there's oso sumting called karma...
mostly, i feel tat if sum1 piss mi i WUD do tings tat'll piss IT off... bt nw... i dun wana care, i dun wana noe, IT will nt be part of my life... tings will be better without IT influencin mi n my decisions... sumtimes i oso tink tat i'm tired of everyting to do wif IT... i dun wan my energy to be wasted like tat... so 眼不见为净 is my motto... as long as u dun see, everyting's nt a burden...
u'll mit a handful of ITs in ur life... u cant stop them... they're pests... u cant get rid of them thoroughly... so y bother?
u start to tink, mabbie i shld juz ignore n nt noe aniting so i can "get on wif my life", bt curiousity will lead u to see again, den u'll get angry or gloatin ovr tat person disgustingly... r we such petty creatures? isnt it better if u juz ignore his/her presence? in tat way, u can live ur happy life... since u dislike tat person tat much, it'll be best if u dun waste ur time on him/her...
sumtimes tat person will come n bother u... den hw u treat tat situation will depend entirely up to u... u wan to piss tat person off, or u wan to ignore tat person? for mi, i'll choose the latter... coz tat person aka IT will nt be worth my time n effort... y shld i let IT tink tat IT is important enuff for mi to tink up of ways to make IT feel bad? so tat i'll feel gd? there's oso sumting called karma...
mostly, i feel tat if sum1 piss mi i WUD do tings tat'll piss IT off... bt nw... i dun wana care, i dun wana noe, IT will nt be part of my life... tings will be better without IT influencin mi n my decisions... sumtimes i oso tink tat i'm tired of everyting to do wif IT... i dun wan my energy to be wasted like tat... so 眼不见为净 is my motto... as long as u dun see, everyting's nt a burden...
u'll mit a handful of ITs in ur life... u cant stop them... they're pests... u cant get rid of them thoroughly... so y bother?
`aPriL WaS HeRe aT 2:43 PM
- worked at tiong bahru plaza ovr the wkend... so bloody hot!! outdoors n the sun was shinin like no1's business!! (guess i cant control the sun) there was no sales on, bt onli for ppl wif high cholestrol to redeem their free omega plus acticol... i was in charge of the samplin on sat... worked realli hard... gettin ppl to try n test for their cholestrol, explainin to them the benefits of plant sterol, answerin their queries... onli to see sum ppl nt workin... standin ard chit chattin... pissed man! boot licker...
aniwae, my cholestrol had improved!! (duno hw accurate la) frm 5.4 (approx) to nw 3.88!! tatz aft my bfast! cant believe it lor... so farnie, mr yong din dare to go test... sigh... i'm fooled by him again... he dare one... juz fake... tryin to get attention... i fell for tat one YET again! aniwae, every1 workin at nestle's booth haf healthy cholestrol level! due to omega!! hehe
sun started off pretty badly... bee choo started on the "eh! u shld look for a bf a settle dwn oreadi" speech... WTF! y is EVERY1 doin tat to mi... wat u wan mi to do? post an ad on the papers or wat? wat u wan mi to do! STOP TAT SPEECH! I HATE IT! itz nt like i din try b4 wat! it juz din work out... wat u wan mi to do? *depression*
aft tat i sian le... i so helped wif the data entry... juz key key scan scan, tok tok... so literally, i slacked la! on sat, i gave out alot of omega for ppl to sample... so 3 machines were pretty much empty by the time we were packin up... ytdae, 2 machines onli still full full de... tok bout efficiency... hw can samplin stock be so full aft a dae of heat! i mean, the gian bieng ppl will wan to quence their thirst rite!
2dae gota check on the status of the mooncake... another fucked up business... n itz SINGPOST! hw can they be so messed up... we'll see hw ba... *sigh* hopefully the dinner mit up is still on....
`aPriL WaS HeRe aT 10:27 AM
- YEAH!! so happie! sold russell peters tix for 300/pair! i sold 2!!
hmm nw wonderin hw much r ppl realli willin to pay... bt happy wif the profit le! hehe gd investment huh?
so freakin busy tis wk!!!! wah liaoz! everydae like runnin here n there, callin ppl up, got bothered by colleague, coordinatin, collating, compiling, etc etc etc... sick man... den tis wkend workin for nestle at tiong bahru plaza.... 14hrs sia... duno wat will happen to mi on mon... haizz
sumtimes i feel tat my mind is nt workin well... i'll tend to 4get who mi goin to mit n when!!
sumtimes i go "mi mitin sum1 tmr... bt who..." if itz gota do wif ktv, i'm sure i wun 4get la! hahaha
YONG!! I WANA GO KTV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
here's my "schedule" for nxt wk
mon: mit up! cheyenne, lixia, evelyn etc etc
tues: radio journalism class
wed: Intro to IT class
thurs: pendin
fri: pendin
sat: facial
sun: sleepin
`aPriL WaS HeRe aT 10:14 AM
- sumtimes u'll find tat songs can make u cry... esp when u're nt feelin tat great! tat applies to mi... almost all the time tis yr.... n i find tat i haf MPD... nt realli tat serious, bt juz tat i cant behave as i like, when i like... i gota pretend to be sum1 else at diff times, at diff places... i could be cryin at one n gota brace myself to nt cry soon aft n be happy
itz sumtimes irritatin when ppl sae i shld get tis n tat coz it'll be gd for mi etc, bt the ting is, i wan them too... bt juz didnt happen... itz hurtin mi too... i tried... bt it juz din happen... wat the fuck u wan mi to do bout it? dun u tink i feel bad too?
who the hell noes hw bad itz hurtin mi? hw many times i've cried?
depression... wat i gota do doesnt help... if i dun do tis, i'll suffer... i'll get hurt... for nth...
`aPriL WaS HeRe aT 5:55 PM
- so fun workin at expo! tiring though... bt got to noe more ppl, fun ppl... bt ended nt tat great...
was packin up rite? n den we saw a HUGE fly on the shelf... den they were tryin to look for sumting to kill it wif, so i picked up a rubber band n shot it... clever rite! haiz... guilty... coz i managed to (dun ask mi hw... 1st time tis happen) shoot off its eyes... super gross lor! body n eyes detached... n i feel so bad...
sigh...
mon was supposed to go ktv wif mr yong... bt coz sun he was caught in the rain(i tink), so fell sick... poor yong... n dad told mi sumting tat he saw happen to him which was v farnie!!!! bt i wun sae la! ltr he scold mi... i hope i can go ktv soon...
tues till nw, mi nt feelin well... my giddy spell is here again... duno y i get it so damn often... itz so irritatin... drink water? eat fruits? i did le ah! sumting wrong wif mi ba... haizz
was on mc ytdae... doc sae if tis persist, gota see specialist!! omg...
`aPriL WaS HeRe aT 10:31 AM
- itz so simple yet so true... we're onli human... there's onli so much we can do... there's also be time we feel so fragile... depressed... times we feel tat we juz nid a gd cuddle, a gd cry or a long sleep...
tatz hw i felt alot during tis yr... no bein in a relationship means i dun haf a bf to cuddle wif... so i turn to my parents... usually my mom... dad will be too shy to let mi cuddle him! hehe so farnie.. bt there're oso times when i'm alone n no1 to cuddle wif... the sense of lonliness will fall upon mi... den i'll feel like i'm all alone in the world, wif no1 to tok to... i mean, who can i call 1am in the morn to tok?
when tings arent goin well, i usually be in denial... goin out wif frenz goin crazy, bt the aftermath oso meant tat i'll be more depressed when alone... so the best ting is to go out n tok... tatz my solution... tok... cheyenne wud noe... hehe tatz y i luv her! sum1 who'll tok sense into mi... understand mi... get angry with mi... sum1 who's reasonable... *no wonder she's into psychology*
feeling mentally drained, all i wana do sumtimes will be slp... i'll wake up occasionally, bt i'll go back to slp if i feel tat i dun wana wake up... tis can onli happen during wkends... 16hrs of slp is my record so far... hehe
no, tis yr isnt a gd yr for mi... n i feel tat i might be sufferin frm depression... bt i'm nt gona let tat pull mi dwn... i dun wana be weak... i'm april... though i'm onli human...
`aPriL WaS HeRe aT 10:41 AM
- wat a wkend! bt 1st, let mi pay my tribute to Steve Irwin
Steve Irwin aka the Crocodile Hunter is my family's fav Zoologist... He died in a freak accident 2dae (4sep06) at ard 11am aussie time... he was doin a new series n filmin underwaters and was tragically punctured in his chest by a stingray's barb... he died... Steve is onli 44! n he's so comedic n entertainin tat my whole family enjoys watchin him so much... he obviously noes his stuff, battlin with crocs, snakes n so many other animals, reptiles n insects... itz farnie to noe tat the man who wrestles crocs, jumps on them without a sec of hesitation to pin them dwn, fear parrots the most... n he felt tat parrots' beak hurt more than fangs of crocs or snakes! i weep ovr the loss of tis talented man... n for his family...
mi got my torey hayden's books! well... 2 of them... One Child and Ghost Girl.. frm bishan library... took quite sum time to look for it though... itz under HEALTH! wah liaoz... mi almost through with One Child... will start on Ghost Girl prob tmr... hehe i realli like readin her books la! bo bian...
sat... mi was plannin to go comex... my dad was workin at expo tat dae, so i tot can come home wif him or sumting... took a nap in the afternn... was slightly awaken by bro runnin outa his rm n sayin sumting... i tot he sae "so late le, hw come nvr wake mi to fetch dad" to mum... well... i was aslp ma! n i went back slpin... well... it turns out tat my bro went to "save" my mum... she cut herself while cuttin the veggie!! n guess wat she used to stop the bleedin? BURN LOTION! so basically, bro wasnt wearin his glasses, n he onli saw "mayo n ketchup" on mum's finger!
well... mum came into my rm n woke mi by showin mi her finger... i tot her finger looked farnie... swollen n a rubber band was tied ard it to stop her bleedin... apparently, it was flowin non stop... *heart pain* n she didnt even want to see a doc! we dragged her to the 24hr clinic aniwae... 2 stitches were used to close the wound... yes... itz deep... n the doc bandaged her finger... i tot the doc wasnt v skilled in stitching though... n the bill came up to $126!!!!! exp man...
mum nw walks ard wif a bandaged finger, n pointin her middle finger at every1... coz itz her middle finger tatz hurt n is unable to bend! hahaha
she finds tis v hilarious though... she'll remove her stitches 2dae... if she's on mc again tmr, ivy saes she'll n stay ovr! hahaha i tink she's aft my xbox...so in the end, i din go to comex... *sigh*
`aPriL WaS HeRe aT 9:53 AM
