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Sunday, March 05, 2006
- sumtimes i feel tat i'm goin crazy... YES i'm gettin crazier than ever... i duno y... stress? frustrated? i can be at home n tinkin bout stuff n juz burst out cryin like there's no tmr... n when i'm out wif my frenz (like ytdae wif jess, fang, mat, andrew, kenneth den saw reuben n xianliang), mi cant control myself bt be loud n crazy... when we're on our way home (mi n jess) den i juz got v quiet... y ah... y m i becomin like tat? do i nid psychologist to look at mi?
sumtimes i oso tink of changin myself... as in, my look at stuff etc... m i too uptight? i like to ask ppl qns den see their view on stuff... so i noe hw ppl feel, react n look at others... provided they ans mi truthfully lah! sumtimes i do stuff which i duno y i did it, sumtimes i do stuff for fun... sumtimes i do stuff which i dun wan ppl to noe bout... sumtimes...
i dun wana be mi... i wana change... bt tatz easier said than done... so mabbie i'll be takin my 1st step..
"do i realli wana do tat?" yes... i do...
"can i handle it IF others noe of it" i duno...
i tink i'm juz messed up nw... i wana get away n nt tink much bout aniting... i'm so low emotionally tat i dun feel like myself... mabbie tatz a gd ting... mabbie i juz nid tat special sum1 to be there to care bout mi... mabbie i'm jealous... mabbie i'm tinkin too much
`aPriL WaS HeRe aT 1:30 PM
